Raining.....

Nothing hard or frightful.....just enough to make everything smell cool. I'm still sitting on my b*tt, working on feeling better and jumping into summer. Just can't jump right now. But it's cool, I don't want to.....hahahaha

I know I have relatives, friends, coworkers who worry. I've got a great Dr. watching me and a Wonderful Husband and Sister who will keep everyone updated. When you see me on my red scooter, you'll forget all this drama and just start laughing! hahahahaha

No quotes today, just read some of the old ones that cover this. hehehe

Lori -- really wishing there was a nice big storm comin'. I love those things!

Okay.....time to get well!

So I'm still fighting infection, bugs, cans of worms.....one of those "trade-offs" was my immune system, unfortunately. Still working on getting myself well, but I have a "no plans" 3 day weekend to get well.

We ordered scooters!! 50cc, 108 miles to a gallon, gorgeous (John's is blue, mine is RED) scooters!!! John's is all ready here and plated, mine is coming in about a week! It was going to be a trip to Yellowstone National Park, but when gas prices spiked, it was a no brainer decision for us. Now this is exciting! Don't worry, pictures will be posted as soon as our butts hit those seats! hahahahaha

Lori -- who's vegging out the weekend sipping my Gatoraide

It's Good News Week......

Good test results and another 3 month ticket to ride! Yaaaaahoooooo!

Next Sunday will be my 1 year anniversary of my day I was diagnosed. Some call themselves "1 year survivors". But I've survived over 58 years that are full of exciting, dramatic, sometimes painful, but most times delightful times! There's many other memorable dates I'd rather remember, and I'm sure I have many more yet to create. So I've planted that "seed", and I'm focusing my thoughts back on the day at hand........and it's working....I'm actually getting good at it now....(wink)

"By being yourself, you put something wonderful
in the world that was not there before." -- Edwin Elliot

Oh, happy day.....
Lori S.

Soft, Cozy Rain....

It's early morning, and I'm sitting in pure bliss, listening to the soft rain patting on my roof. All my life, I've had this very difficult time really relaxing....sitting and doing nothing....not enjoying the passage of time and experiences that moment in time, just advancing myself mentally to the next phase. It's hard to put into words, but I know what I mean. After my experiences last summer, that's changed. It wasn't something I conciously did, it just happened....slowly, slowly, all by itself. I've also learned that pleasing others is not something I have time for anymore, That's a hard part for me, but it's getting easier. My perspective, prospects, view on my life aren't necessarily their's. I had this mind-set that after all treatment was done, I would just get back to my old life...step right in where I left off, for the sake of the people I loved, even more than myself. Don't get me wrong, I want to live til I'm old and grey.....well, not too old...hehehe But the thoughts that run through my head are not the same as others and I'm really at peace with that, no matter which way life takes me. Really!! But I now have limitations that I didn't have. Cancer treatments gave me a few new body challenges that I have to adjust my life too, but like my Dr. keeps telling me, it's all a trade-off and so well worth it. I'm here! I'm alive! I'm happy! There's not much to wish for after that!

Yesterday, I planted my herb bed......I was truly in Heaven. I huffed and puffed through the whole thing (felt like I was running a marathon!) Seems my lungs aren't what they used to be. Getting on my knees (and back up again) has become a new challenge but it gave me a good laugh everytime I saw my reflection in the window. hahaha We topped the day off with a cocktail and a lovely campfire. It was a day filled with moments that went nice and slow, and my mind never once flew forward to the "completion", like I used to do.....I like it here.

I love this one:
"The best kind of rain, of course, is a cozy rain. This is the kind the anonymous medieval poet makes me remember, the rain that falls on a day when you'd just as soon stay in bed a little longer, write letters or read a good book by the fire, take early tea with hot scones and jam and look out the streaked window with complacency." ~Susan Allen Toth, England For All Seasons

Live in a moment....find a good one and stay there for awhile.

Lori S.

Has it been a week???!!

I just checked the date of my last blog post. Okay, that's a good sign, means I'm busy and preoccupied with other "stuff". Good stuff! School has been busy and a bit stressful, as it's the end of a school year and there's things to catch up on and finish up. It's a time in special ed where the urge to "pull your hair out" (and you know that's not an option for me!) is uncontrollably strong! My solution? Everyday,last week, I took a "suprise" into work for the girls (co-workers, not students). Monday, it was little mini-Snicker bars.....Tuesday, it was my Wedding Picture Album (oh, Sue and Connie, you should SEE us!!! hahaha)........Wednesday, it was cabbage and apple salad I'd made to share at lunch.....Thursday, snap peas and dip to share with my friend. We would think of something GOOD about the day, instead of dwelling on the crappy stuff. Sounds simple enough, but often hard to do. But it's amazing how just one little, light hearted, uplifting "thought" can change your whole outlook on the day, the week..........and the rest of your life! Ask me how I know......

"The greatest discovery of my generation is that human beings can alter their lives by altering their attitudes of mind." -- William James


Live in the moment!
Lori