Soft, Cozy Rain....

It's early morning, and I'm sitting in pure bliss, listening to the soft rain patting on my roof. All my life, I've had this very difficult time really relaxing....sitting and doing nothing....not enjoying the passage of time and experiences that moment in time, just advancing myself mentally to the next phase. It's hard to put into words, but I know what I mean. After my experiences last summer, that's changed. It wasn't something I conciously did, it just happened....slowly, slowly, all by itself. I've also learned that pleasing others is not something I have time for anymore, That's a hard part for me, but it's getting easier. My perspective, prospects, view on my life aren't necessarily their's. I had this mind-set that after all treatment was done, I would just get back to my old life...step right in where I left off, for the sake of the people I loved, even more than myself. Don't get me wrong, I want to live til I'm old and grey.....well, not too old...hehehe But the thoughts that run through my head are not the same as others and I'm really at peace with that, no matter which way life takes me. Really!! But I now have limitations that I didn't have. Cancer treatments gave me a few new body challenges that I have to adjust my life too, but like my Dr. keeps telling me, it's all a trade-off and so well worth it. I'm here! I'm alive! I'm happy! There's not much to wish for after that!

Yesterday, I planted my herb bed......I was truly in Heaven. I huffed and puffed through the whole thing (felt like I was running a marathon!) Seems my lungs aren't what they used to be. Getting on my knees (and back up again) has become a new challenge but it gave me a good laugh everytime I saw my reflection in the window. hahaha We topped the day off with a cocktail and a lovely campfire. It was a day filled with moments that went nice and slow, and my mind never once flew forward to the "completion", like I used to do.....I like it here.

I love this one:
"The best kind of rain, of course, is a cozy rain. This is the kind the anonymous medieval poet makes me remember, the rain that falls on a day when you'd just as soon stay in bed a little longer, write letters or read a good book by the fire, take early tea with hot scones and jam and look out the streaked window with complacency." ~Susan Allen Toth, England For All Seasons

Live in a moment....find a good one and stay there for awhile.

Lori S.