Three cheers for me! I've finished my PCI (brain radiation) and for the first time since last June, done with all my cancer stuff....except for those dreaded 3 month CT scans. I make it a point not to regress or relive all that. Once was enough. But I know that if I have recurrence, I'll do it all again if it'll give me the chance to add more time to my stay on the planet!
I can remember when I was first diagnosed with small cell lung cancer, it was totally devastating! I was scared out of my mind! I wondered if I could ever get back into my life. I hear it again and again on my support groups, cancer survivors I know, and anytime anybody is newly diagnosed with this disease. Slowly..........steadily.........my life has come back, in some ways, better than it was. I now have a new appreciation for living, new definitions of happiness, and a new realization of what really matters. My chemo ended in October/2007 and I was lucky to be able to go back to work the first of November. Everyone said it was too soon. Maybe it was, but I knew sitting home would make me "think I was sick". Work was a wonderful distraction. I laughed and intermingled with coworkers and students. I realized that I didn't know anymore about my time on earth now than I did before I was diagnosed. I now live life to the fullest, enjoying every day as a wonderful gift, not dwelling on the past, and not planning so infatically on the future. I've heard of a lot of people not living past the first two years. But I've heard of others living years and years. I've decided I want to be one of the them! I hope this sends promise to all those feeling fear from their diagnosis. Over the hill is your life, waiting for you to rejoin it! -- “Breathe in, breathe out, move on..." *Jimmy Buffett Live in the Moment! Lori S.
P.S.--12" of snow headed right at us! School's closed!!! I'm sitting here playing on the net, drinking a delicious mug of coffee in my jammies, pretending I'm in a cabin deeeep in the woods of Alaska! Life is good......
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